Today I am having a little thing called "survivor's guilt" There has been so much death and suffering from cancer in my world this week.. I am literally in tears over it. I will never understand God's reasoning on taking others, and leaving the rest, but it is out of my relm of understanding.
Last year I got to meet an amazing family, the Cooke's. I love these people, they are so amazing. Wesley, a child in there family, who is ONLY 4 has been fighting cancer and chemo since around Christmas, it breaks my heart watching his struggle, and then I look at my cancer battle, and I don't even feel right calling mine a battle, it hasn't been anywhere near what poor Wes and his family have gone through. I don't like sharing a lot of my struggle with it, because.. in all honesty I would trade places in a millisecond with Wesley, so that his awesome family gets peace. This baby, has shown such strength and such awesomeness, that sometimes I can't even show. I have been known to wait till everyone goes to bed,pop in a movie that makes me cry... and just cry.
His mother Lu needs some sort of Super Hero award, she is an amazing woman, so strong, and so graceful. I have watched this family rally around, pitch in and share the load. Wesley is not an only child, he has siblings, so literally the family has stepped up and helped lu and john care for all of their children. WOW.. is all I can say to that.
Jessica Cooke, Wesley's aunt, offered to be on the phone with me.. while I go to the doctor so that someone is with me, my heart was touched beyond words with that offer, but that is the way the Cooke's are, so as touched as I was, I was no where near surprised. Wesley's battle is still on going, so please, take a moment and pray for Wesley and his family <3
I have posted the link to Wesley's Facebook , just click on it, it will take to updates on how he is doing, Please put him on your prayer list, or donate to his fund if you are able to.
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Some of the woman that have died this week from cancer have impacted so many lives, including my own. Rena Tarbot was an amazing woman, she fought cancer for 37 years, she impacted others with her story. She was a retired Mary Kay NSD. I had heard her speak before she retired, it was awesome. You could truly see the God in her.
In time's like these it is hard not to question my existence, I don't like questioning the plan God has for me, because I know there is a reason for everything he does. I just know that there is so much more I need to do in life, I don't feel I have made the impact I am meant to make and it frustrates me beyond measure. I know God has called me to service woman in my business, make them feel special, make them feel important. I am not living up to what I need to do. I realize this every time I see a report from Wesley's Facebook, or in hearing the passing of someone I know. God always speaks to me in these times and reminds me time is precious and not promised. I recently have been faced with my own mortality, and People, I can tell you , I haven't liked what I have seen, too many things I want to do... so much time wasted, but I can fix that, that is why my "Bucket List" has been change to my TO DO list, I want to make what seams impossible.. Possible!
I have titled it : Mission Possible!!
SO My question to you is, What have you always wanted to do, but never dared to do? Why haven't you done it?
Watch this Video, it will really inspire you :) My friend Elizabeth shared it in our Mary Kay group, it has been amazing.
When the final buzzer buzzes for me I want to say, I lived!!!! WOOT I am ready to go home, I don't ever want to have everything I ever wanted to do flash in front of my eyes again!
Where do you want to be?
Every Morning I wake up, and say YES, I can do this! It's possible, I am going to accomplish Mission Possible!!!
It is raining again, I think I shall go walk in it, and pretend it is dancing! thank God for today ;)
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